The Game Of Life

Before I start I'd like to thank Nathalie for the idea of this post, she thought that since I do game reviews I should do one about something else (no spoilers!) So I hope you guys enjoy this one.

P.S. This is going to be a long post.

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For this review I will judge the game on a few different aspects, which are; Story, Gameplay, Characters, Sound and Music, Graphics, and of course the final score for this game.


The name of the game is LIFE. Yes, just 1 word, LIFE. The developers and publishers of this game are unknown as of now. But rumors in the Vatican says that it was by someone named God, and the scientist from various countries claim that it was by Evolution. Either way, let's get on with the review.

LIFE's released date is also unknown, but the synopsis is that you will play as a person who starts off in your mother's womb and from there you will gain control of your character. Basically the goal of the game is to experience life, there is also Online play available, or you can even just stick to the single player mode. Either way, it's your choice. Also LIFE cannot be purchased at any game store, you need to wait for it to be delivered to you to start playing, unfortunately.


Story: The game takes place on our current time line on Planet Earth, each unit of life varies, mine started in 1993. But either way you will start the game inside your mother's womb then after 9 months of loading time, you will finally take control of your character. The game is pretty similar to Fallout 3, where you have to pick choices to shape your own story. After the baby stages, you will advance to childhood stage which is basically playing around all day without a worry, then the youngster period where you begin to go to school, adolescence stage where you continue up to high school, young adult stage where you go to college and adult stage where you get your first official job and then you will see the epilogue in the eyes of the elderly period. Each of these stages will have countless choices to choose from and they will shape the next stage of the story. However, the backdraw of the game is that you can't repeat the choices, the game offers no saving option whatsoever. So pick carefully. But in conclusion I would like to say that the story is full of depth and very down to earth. It totally has everything in it as far as I know (Since I'm still at the Adolescence Stage) It has almost everything, from drama, action, romance, thriller, horror... you name it, LIFE has it! LIFE's story is also so overwhelming that you'll feel attach to it.

Story: 9.5/10



Gameplay: Basically, LIFE is an Action/Adventure Game with a First Person point of view. IT also has Role-Playing Game elements. When you start of you can only crawl, once you've gained enough crawling level you will be able to walk, then run. You will also be able to handle multiple objects like computers, cellphones, even weapons like knives or guns once you've gained enough experience levels and wisdom levels. But the potency of handling these objects are affected by your judgement level. Let's say at one point in your life you are short of money, and you decide to rob a bank, if your judgement level is not high enough, your karmatic level will force you to rob a bank. Or maybe when someone enrages you and your character says he/she wants to slap the offender, if your judgement is not good, he/or she will slap that person with the consequence of losing a social link, or even worse; making enemies.

LIFE takes place on Earth as I earlier stated, you have access to a open-ended world, you can go anywhere you like in later parts of the game, provided if you have enough money. Though for the earlier part you will be forced to go to school to gain more levels in various areas like sports, arts, academics and much more. This will ultimately decide which college or university will go to, hence it will affect your future career choices. Again choice plays an important part in school, you have the choice to doze of during class, do other things or even skip school entirely and going somewhere else to raise your satisfaction bar.

The satisfaction bar fills when you do the things that you find enjoyable, be it from watching a movie to partying in a club, these activities will increase your satisfaction bar, but raising the bar will of course; consume your money, that is why it is important to obtain a job when you reach the adult stage to ensure the financial stability of your character.

Again I stress, you cannot save your game hence you cannot replay the area you've got a Game Over in and it's a single cycle game. If you cannot cope with your Health meter, you will pass away and ultimately ending the game, rendering it unplayable again. So you have to take care of yourself, the risks are always high. Most players die young on the streets, others are kidnapped by other players during online play in the city and then die, some even don't receive their copy of LIFE and they will be registered as dead.

You will also have access to social links, social links, AKA Friends and Family will also affect your character development by tipping your Karmatic meter. Bad influences will turn your character into a villain while good influences will keep your character in his/her hero mode. You will gain access to different social links throughout the game, most noticeably is the Parents social links that you obtain at the very start of the game. This will ultimately tilt your Karmatic meter towards one end, it depends on what kind of parents you get though. But no matter you can work your way to your desired end of the Karmatic meter. Be helping people or taking their life, you hold the choices in your hands.

You will also have a choice to dive yourself into a religion of your choice, in LIFE, you can pick any religion you want, or maybe you prefer to be an atheist? But to sum it all up, if you pick a religion, it will slightly tilt your Karmatic meter to a positive note and it will increase the level of your character's faith which will boost your character's judgement level.

Take note, when you do kill another person playing LIFE, it will not only tilt your Karmatic meter towards the villain side, but also will place you under police surveillance, and that person whom you have just murdered will get a Game Over ending his/her LIFE.

Marriage will also become once you have enough cash and when you have a spouse that you can engage to. Marriage will result in your character marrying another character whom you will live together for the rest of the game. And when you manage to have a family, LIFE copies will be sent out to other people to grant you a baby, thus making you that person's Parent social link.

The length of gameplay varies on how you play the game, some end the game at a young age due to death, some will ultimately finish the game and die of old age. The average game time you'll get is 50 years. Some are lucky enough to keep playing the game for over 100 years. I've also heard rumors that whatever you do in LIFE will affect the sequel that's coming to you called AFTERLIFE. So, with such variety, what more can you ask for with open opportunities of LIFE?

Gameplay: 10/10



Characters: As far as character goes, you build up your own persona during the course of the game and the characters/social links you meet vary depending on which unit of LIFE you get. But here are a few screenshots of the characters that I've met so far into this game:

People who can change the way you think about LIFE:














People who can teach you a thing or two when you play LIFE:












People that help you when you're losing the game:













Or people that makes LIFE seem a little more interesting when you meet them:























With that all I can say is you will meet a variety of people from all walks of life.

Characters: 10/10


Sound and Music: In LIFE, you can customize your own music, which is one of the best features of the game. The playlist available for your music can be changed depending on your mood and as you progress the game, more songs will become available. Currently my Playlist consist of works from Paramore, Jason Mraz and one of the most renowned contemporary composers; SHoji Meguro of his Shin Megami Tensei fame. The overral SFX of the game is superb since LIFE uses a technology ahead of our time to encode the audio.

Sound and Music: 10/10


Graphics: LIFE's graphics are undoubtedly gorgeous. The resolution of LIFE goes beyond your 1080p HD boundaries. The graphics are very realistic. You can see the details of a person's every hair strand even to the finest of wrinkles. Even the environment is beautifully projected with such detail that it can only be the work of one with divine skill.

Graphics: 10/10


I would like to say that LIFE gains a 10/10 from me. It is, by far one of the most exhilarating experiences I've ever had in my life. (no pun intended) For those of you who are reading this, lucky you, you've got your copy of LIFE!

Final Verdict: 10/10 Overall Score
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And......done, I hope you guys enjoyed this and for those of you who's photos I've taken from your Facebook pages ever so secretly, I'm deeply sorry.

Also, credits for the epic sunset picture goes to Johnathan and his superb photography skill. And the game cover was a photoshop edit done by me.

ALright then, that's it from me for now. Remember, live that life of yours to the fullest.

I'm back.

Ah, the familiar "New Post" page with a piano tune to accompany me as I write, how good to see you again, and hello, once again, my readers. It's been a long time, since I updated, huh? It's a pleasure for me to continue my life's chronicles in the form of these digitized alphabets. To be honest, that's not the main point, the main point being that...I have nothing to do and I can't sleep for some enigmatic reason, well to be honest it's because I'm feeling lonely and there's no one to talk to at this hour. I'm gonna skip all my usual wordplay and just type like my normal self for this one, hope you guys don't mind.

My life so far has been fun of ups and downs, and time sure flies, right? 2 more months till I face the music of SPM. Back to the subject at hand, yeah, I've been having an inconsistent life. Let's just summarize it from the top. I broke up with my first ever girlfriend because she didn't really appreciate me, from there, I lived more freely, free from her clutches. Then Ritchie introduced me to a girl which of course as usual, failed. Then I tried to become more well-acquainted with another girl, which yes, you've guessed it, failed. Then from my sorrowful clouds came a silver lining, someone very dear to me, finally accepted my offer to be in a relationship with her, after a month, she broke up with me and of course left me in shattered pieces.

From there, friends came to my aid, Ritchie, Nathalie, Nizam, Teck Hui all came to comfort me in their own, special unique way. I owe them the greatest of debts, thank you guys, I really appreciate that. It took almost 2 months to fully recover, and in the midst of my lamenting I was pushed to the edge with Public Speaking practice which I had to go to. Then, after reuniting with an old friend, Trester, meeting a few new ones and befriended the St. Marians, I slowly got back on my feet, because of all of you, I've become a more improved individual and cleaned up my act and also forget about my past anguish. It is safe to say that all of you are the best friends I could ever have. Thank you, Trester, Amirul, Anis, Adlinur, Josey and of course Su Ann. The Pesta Ria the St. Marians held was definitely the icing on top. And yes, Su Ann, I still love that Rojak.

The names mentioned above didn't just help me, each of them taught me something, Trester taught me that I should be patient, and have a little faith in both people and God. Amirul taught me that if you love someone, stay true to that feeling, patience is the key to a woman's heart. Anis taught me that love will find it's way no matter what, and she made my fandom towards Paramore THAT much more serious. Adlinur made me realize that guys like me are extinct (In a good way) and that girls aren't all that superficial. Josey AKA Jocelyn taught me the ways of taking it easy through the music of Jason Mraz, and she was responsible for me to meet the next person. Su Ann taught me the greatest of all lessons, that we can not give up, no matter what and that we should always perform our best at anything, she also got me into reading the wonderful works written by Cecelia Ahern and reignited my passion for a certain yellow sponge living under the sea. Thank you again to all of you, I love each and everyone of you to bits!

And of course there was my fun time with Amin and Ronald at the robotics competition, even though we lost, we still had fun, especially chanting Chong Hwa's name for beating the arrogant St. John's robotics squad. CHONG HWA! CHONG HWA!

Oh, also, today I went Ice Skating again with Yen Yi with her boyfriend and 2 others, really had a fun time with you guys, especially causing havoc in MPH. And Casualtiy report: My limbs...HURT. A fraction of the skin on my left foot tore itself apart. But thank goodness I was improving and didn't lose my skill.

Speaking of skill, my dearest Piano teacher let me advance to grade 2! Finally, no more cartoon doodles in my books, and I'm that much closer to perfection! Gotta give it my all, right, Su Ann?

By the way, my sweet CPU just got an UPGRADE a month back, thanks to Ritchie for laying the final blow on my Graphics Card, now I have a much more better PC! So now I can finally play all those PC games that I always wanted to play.

Hmm...it's 3:14, I guess I better stop here.

Adios amigos~

Chain of Memories

Memories are like an endless chain, a never-ending cycle that repeats itself through life. Though some maybe bitter, filled with utter discord, yet there are tiny sparks of light that illuminate the dark. These blissful moments that I adore.

My friend did a post on his reminisce with his girlfriend whom what I would call a bittersweet moment in life. Even though that moment is over, he is still finding his way around his own darkness, through his current life. I didn't find my light, it came to me.

I had a friend. She was my first serious crush, the first person who encouraged me to sing and dance, the first girl to tell me that looks isn't everything. The person who was always there for me when I hit rock-bottom. And most importantly, the only person who made me feel significant when the whole world was against me. The chains I forged with her were one of bittersweet moments, sometimes we might be in an argument but in the end we felt as if we need each other when prejudice fills our hearts. I broke down when she had a boyfriend and canceled me out. And she broke down when I left her alone after she broke up and it happened twice. In the end we realized, we still needed each other and there's nothing that could separate us.

Now we were back like how we used to be. I was her hero and she's my heroine. I was searching for redemption for the ignorance I gave her in the past, and I want to help her through her life again, that much I can promise. A few days back, I was on the phone with her and told her the honest truth of us needing each other. And that we should try to get together, so the whole affair could be easier. "Hmmm... I'll think about it." she said rather hesitantly. All I can do now is wait for a 3 syllable word that would be gently whispered out of her lips.

This post is for you, know that I'm always there for you.

ciao i miei amici, e il mio amore.
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Quote of the Day: "Beautiful girls, all over the world, I could be chasing em' but my time would be wasted, cuz they got nothin' on you, baby, nothin' on you, baby."

-Chorus of Nothin' On You by B.o.B featuring Bruno Mars

Of a father's compassion and holding myself back.

Nier. The single oddly spelled name has made his way to one of my most respected characters ever made. His unyielding persona, and compassion for those around him is hard to come by in real life. His kindness of helping those in need and giving his all to save his daughter, Yonah from the dreaded Black Scrawl disease is reason enough to play the game. Great story, decent gameplay and superb voice-acting. My only complaint towards Nier is the repetitive side-quests mandatory to get cash from, that concludes my brief review of the game I'm currently playing.


Now, some of you may know I've been trying to go after a certain girl, but well, in the end, things didn't work out. And I've come to a realization, that meeting random girls isn't the way to go. So from this moment on, I won't go after any girls anymore. "Leave it to fate." said my good friend; Nathalie. And leaving it to fate I will. For those of you who are in a relationship, congratulations and keep it that way, you're lucky enough to love and to be loved back. Now as I look back, the only people I see are my friends and friends only.

Anyways, ciao miei cari lettori.

P.S. Stay true to yourself.
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Quote of the Day: "Fuck the ass and cover the face." -Arul's solution to having sex with an ugly chick.

Human

A boy was branded as the savior. With a sleight of hand, he could make a boy and a girl fall in love, with a few words he could have a couple get their first kiss, with a snap of a finger he could heal the wounds of one's heart, with his presence he could reignite a lost love. He was just used that way. With all that he's done around him, he was left alone with no one to love him. Then a feeling emerged from the sea of his soul, an enigmatic feeling he rarely feels; Jealousy. In the end the boy realized, he was just human.

Patience

A boy lets go of the one he's infatuated to, realizing it was a mistake. He was drowned in a sea of sorrow, but one of angelic grace appeared before him. Unintentionally bringing him to his former, cheery self. The boy talks to the angelic figure, and finally, the overwhelming feelings dispersed just like water transmuting into gas. He realized that the angelic figure was just an ordinary girl. Yet, deep within his lost soul, there was a feeling growing for that angelic figure, and so began the tale of his new muse.

Days past, day by day he realizes that his feelings for her growing deeper and deeper. Each moment without her was but a stake impaled to his already fragile heart. He waited, and waited, patience growing thin, he sent her a message, seeking to acquire her latest shenanigans. Yet, his message was replied naught. All he can do now is wait, wait for his angel to descend upon him once more, the boy who bears the patience of millenniums, as he waits, he wonders...is the wait worth it so?

6 months till Doomsday and it's still a melodramatic life.

So, it's May. And it's going to be 6 more months until "judgement day" AKA SPM. Not that I worry or anything, since I'm confident from the neck up that I'm gonna ace the test. But what concerns me is the irony, that this very year, 2010; has the most melodramatic turn of events in my life (well, not so much) and those around me.

I mean c'mon, 09' didn't have these kinds of things going on. Like for instance my 2 closest friends getting together, my friend having a bad time with his relationship some people doubting their relationships, some getting stronger, or things like me, this year, having my first relationship and break-up, first time ACTUALLY getting depressed and getting up from where I fell. My dearly beloved readers what I'm trying to say is, 2010 is a year full of drama. I've never witnessed so much love problems in a year before. Heck, if I was a licensed psychologist, I would have made MILLIONS of cash.

But hey, I'm not one who expects ANYTHING in return, never did.

MOVING ON,

well, I AM moving on, I admit it, a few weeks back I fell for a girl, but in the end, I thought that it was worthless to go after her, it's just not worth it. Maybe I do deserve better, and that's why I'm moving on. I don't know who, but I'm sure I will meet the right girl at one point in my life. Or maybe, I already did.

P.S. Love is like a flower that takes time to blossom it's beautiful sight.
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Ciao, mi amici.

Nope, not quotes or insanities today, sorry.

Iron men, choices and fairy tales.

Considering the circumstances of my current life, how unrequited love can be. Robert Downey Jr. and a fictional iron suit made from polygons and textures were the only things keeping me happy. Yes, Iron Man 2 is the only thing that kept my cheeriness. The movie gets a solid 9.5 out of 10 from me. The story was great, the actors, especially Robert Downey Jr. (Tony Stark/Iron Man) and Mickey Rourke (Whiplash/Ivan Vanko) were THE best. Downey Jr. who played Tony gave the character it's witty and cynical persona, his acting made me feel as if Tony Stark was real, while Rourke in the other hand, aced the "bad mother fucker" persona, him being Whiplash, a villain created especially for the movie, made Iron Man 2 as one of the most innovative movies ever, since not every comic-to-silver screen movie has an original villain. Of course the movie has an outstanding cast, mainly consisting of Scarlett Johansson as Black Widow and Samuel L. Jackson as Nick Fury. The only thing that didn't win me over was the final battle. It could have been longer and more thrilling, but the whole experience of the movie makes up for it.

Alas, after the movie, I went back into depression mode. I figured if I went to the arcades , I could release the lamenting side of me on pixelated bad guys. But no, it didn't work well, I am still rather down, maybe it's time for me to move on, I dunno. But watching 2 of my closest friends "expressing" their affection right behind me while I was shooting really broke my concentration, and made me realize, not everyone lives a life of fairy tales. I don't have love as easy as theirs, maybe I never will.

I'm sorry, It's just that the plethora of emotions dwelling within my sea of soul are consuming me. I should be an AM happy that I helped my friends in a way. But at the same time, jealousy overcomes me, no, not because one of my female friend is smitten, it's the fact that other people have better lives than me.

I can't disclose who were they, but I think they're satisfied. And for that, I have naught but a brief respite.

Maybe...just maybe, I should just move along.

P.S. the world is not enough.
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Quote of the Day: "Will someone stop this song? So I won't sing along" -Lyrics from Stop This Song by Paramore.

Insanity of the Day:

This conversation was via text message, before Iron Man 2 started when we were already seated:

Me: Let the magic happen. *sends to Ritchie and Nathalie*

Nat: *replies* Shit you la.

Me: *replies to Nat* lol, DO EET!

Nat: *replies* Siao.

Me: *replies to Nat* Can la~ DO EET *thumbs up*

Me: *sends to Ritchie* DO EET

Ritchie: *replies* screw you

Kindness Has No Perks.

To be frank, I'm the kind of person who believes that if someone does something good to another, he/she will be rewarded one way or another with good in the future. It is somewhat leaning towards the Karma system, in my opinion.

But yesterday I realized that kindness does nothing, one moment I'm getting "thank you"s from someone, and the next moment where I accidentally cracked up a lame joke, that person lies to me and ignores me. That's a nice "reward".

Then today, I was just trying to help a friend who's in a pitch with the discipline teachers by telling him to calm down and don't just quit from the prefectorial board from one small mishap. He listened. But when the angry teacher walked back into class, I got lectured for trying to solve a problem. "ARE YOU TRYING TO BE SOME SORT OF HERO, JONATHAN?!" the teacher shouted. I didn't reply. As I always mentioned, adults are ridiculously fatuous. So I don't really care.

No matter, I'm still a individual with firm beliefs and I will not yield. If the risks of being kind are so, then so be it. Now I have to go to that cursed Economics tuition.

ciao.
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Quote of the Day: "You can be a king or a street sweeper, but everyone dances with the Grim Reaper." - Robert Alton Harris' words before he was executed

Oh Star...

"Oh star, fall down on me..... let me make a wish upon you...."

Those are the first words in the lyrics of Oh Star by Paramore. And that sentence keeps playing itself in my head, over and over like a broken record.

Oh the things I wished to be granted. I wished I was one step closer in reaching her heart. I wished she wouldn't be so ignorant. I wished my decisions are always right. I wished I wasn't born into a household and raised by greedy jackasses. I wished I could undo the wrongs I did in my life. I wish the world isn't superficial.

Sorry, for some reason, I'm feeling rather down today. I'm not sure why. But listening to this song, it just made me want to blog, about my wishes that will never come true.

P.S. Life isn't fair.
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Quote of the Day: "A man is lucky if he is the first love a of a woman, a woman is lucky if she is the last love of a man." -Charles Dickens

Of kicking ass and suprises

Hmmm...nothing to do...might as well blog of today's turn of events. Today was rather special. It wasn't just like any other Saturday, this is pretty much the summary of today:

So I woke up in the morning, feeling like going back to sleep, since I woke up at 7AM-ish to go to school for prize giving day, and had to be a back-up welcoming committee for the VIP. For the first time in my high-school life, I get to wear a blazer, now that's nigh laughable, since I always wanted to wear a blazer. SO I got my prize and IMMEDIATELY told my dad to drive me back home, since I'm the catalyst for today's event, which was organizing a get-together with my friends and to go watch a movie, and lunch.

The night before was hectic, since I had to plan on who's doing what. And an unexpected someone finally decided to join us. But the next day, it all pull through and I think everyone was happy. Me, Eunice, (yes, this is my first time mentioning her in my blog, she was the unexpected one to come and join us, I met her a week ago.) Ritchie, Nathalie, Susan...and Susan's boyfriend who tagged along were the ones there.

So finally when I got a call from Nathalie as I was practicing piano, embracing it's elegant sounds, I finally got to the cinemas, Susan already was lining-up to get tickets to watch Kick-Ass, me an Nat were talking, until a few minutes later, Ritchie called, he showed up with Eunice. Since he was in-charge of picking her up. So I get to meet up with Eunice for the first time, and Nathalie gets to meet some of my friends, while Ritchie gets to meet Nathalie again.

So Susan decided to go and walk around with her boyfriend, and then there was 4.... Ritchie and Nathalie bolted and walked waaaaaaaaaaays in front of me and Eunice. Ritchie you sly bastard you. So I was walking with Eunice...until...I saw...Jane.Lee. She totally misunderstood, I was just walking with her, nothing more. So we got our stomachs filled and talked. Then we rushed to the cinemas and watched Kick-Ass.

The movie...KICKED.ASS. It's really good, and it's totally a worth-watching flick. I recommend it to people who like comedy, action and drama. Though the movie started out funny and not serious at all. It ended up as something people can learn from that it's not "With No Power Comes No Responsibilities." but everyone plays a part in society, though their deeds forgotten, the feeling of victory is still sweet. Hit-Girl was totally my favorite hero in the movie, since she does most of the awesome things, the movie even has Call of Duty references!

So after that we went hunting for guitar strings. Eunice had to replace hers since she wanted to play guitar. After that, I went and buy some snacks at Carl's Jr. even though I ate most of it. We also went and see some pets since the bowling alley was full (bowling was our initial idea) After that, we said our farewells for now, and I actually wanted to take a picture of us 4 (Susan and her boyfriend once again disappeared after the movie.) But no one wanted, so in the end only me and Eunice took a picture.

After that, I left for my music class and the rest went back home.

The rest is silence.

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Quote of the Day: "I care about you a lot." Kick-Ass' way of saying "I love you"


Insanity of the Day:

Choral Speakers: We share the food that we eat! We share the words that we speak!

Me: *whispers to Hon Pann* We share the beds that we sleep...

Hon Pann: We share the condoms that we use.

Me: what...?

Confusion

Hmmm...since I'm bored, she's not online and I'm about to play some Modern Warfare, why not blog a a bit, eh?

Truth is, every time I fall for a girl, I'm always hurled into a endless cycle of confusion, and this one's the worst of them all... first she says that she's not interested in any relationships due to her "young" age, then next she says that she has a crush on a guy in her church, and that guy also has a crush on her, but she doesn't want to be with him due to self-doubt, even after I've advised her to get into a relationship, she still denies it's benefits.

Then, just yesterday, I was talking to her, and brought up the question "Except for the fact that you're "young", what else is stopping you from getting into a relationship?" She said she wasn't comfortable with how guys label girl as an object by exclaiming a girl is "my girl". But I told her that it wasn't true, that a relationship was more than that, it's when two souls find the flower seeds of love waiting to bloom for each other, and when two people promise to take care of each other, in sickness or health. It's when you craft a bond with your partner; a bond of trust. Just as I win over the debate, she changed the subject, I was fairly disappointed.

After that rebuttal, the question in my head is... why is she so defensive and for what? Why is she so secretive towards me? Am I not someone whom you can trust? Why does me enjoying helping people make her label me as Superman? WHY IS SHE SO VIDEO-GAME ORIENTED THAT SHE KNOWS WHERE I GOT MY MOST RECENT DRAWING REFERENCE?! And lastly, why am I attracted to her so? Recently drawn picture, Sigma Kurogami from Sigma Harmonics

Alas, those are questions that cannot be answered.

The rest is silence.

P.S. Some are born great, but others have greatness thrust upon them.

P.S.S. Zee, you lazy bum, here, this post is to update you on my love life.

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Quote of the Day: "The tighter the pussy the bigger the cock, it's a hypothesis." -Hon Pann

Of gains and loss

So, I'm officially back from Bentong, Pahang from the short Leadership Camp. The camp was pretty much decent, it had good food and interesting activities, apart from where I thought I had to climb the steep path to the place but actually we were supposed to wait for another lorry to take us up since the one we were riding in broke down. I couldn't breathe for approx. 30 minutes, that's not natural, usually I'll recover in 5 minutes whenever that happens.

With 78 students....taking a bath wasn't easy since toilets were always full, also since My dorm is WAYS from the toilet or the hall, I was just too lazy to keep going back and forth. But There was a lot of firsts, I had my first obstacle course, I had my first Flying Fox, had my first crossing of a suspension bridge. But sadly, since my physical health didn't allow me so, I skipped the Jungle Trekking.

My group The White Eagles won the best group in the camp. I also as part of a sketch that placed 4th that night, as a result, I've lost my voice since I was practicing my falsettos.

That's pretty much is the Leadership Camp in a nutshell.

MOVING ON.

Great...I lost my phone, now I have to re-save all of my contacts, it was loss on the bus ride home today.

One more thing...yeah, I'll admit it, I AM missing someone, I think I'm beginning to get a little more infatuated towards her...what should I do...she doesn't want a relationship yet I'm beginning to get VERY interested in her....should I wait? Or should I take Ritchie's advice and stay as JUST friends with her... one thing's for sure though, she's the only exception.

P.S. Without Music, Life Is Meaningless.
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Quote of the Day: "Let's sneak into the girl's dorm and take their virginity one by one."
-Me, being bored in the middle of the night

Insanity of the Day:"Passengers, this is how you put on the safety vest in case of emergency landings... to inflate the vest, pull these two ropes *does pulling motion* OH MY GOD I HAVE HUGE BREASTS!" - Johnathan Goh on safety vests

Leadership Camp

Okay so tomorrow I'm off to Leadership Camp and won't be home till Sunday. Trust me, I didn't want to go, but a certain teacher forced me to. It's just a 2 days 1 night trip, so whatever. Well, guess I'll see you back on Sunday. And damn, I can't believe the company that SUPPOSED to handle the printing of the Prefect T-shirts screwed up the color scheme, AND logo size, also they screwed the material.... it just MADE my day.

Also, I changed my blog header picture. It's SUPPOSE to mean that there's always a myriad of thoughts in my head, and I feel like killing myself sometimes.
Anyways, ciao, amici.

P.S. When you meet that perfect someone, there's always a catch.
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Quote of the Day: "It's all in your head" - Ritchie, on my constant paranoia.

Insanity of the Day:

Me: Amin, I think I'm falling for a chick, she's from Raja Ali....

Amin: RAJA ALI?! *sigh* ...used pussy...

Me: Gee, thanks for making me even MORE paranoid.

Amin: *smirks*

Of Music and Love.

Okay, enough ranting...seriously...I'm bored of that. Now finally a real update.

My life's been great so far, I started learning the Piano 4 weeks ago and I love it. And my teacher's a very cool person to hang out with. Shoutout to you teacher, if you're reading this. My guitar on the other hand has turned to shit, I might consider going on a full 1 hour piano class instead of a 30 minutes of piano and 30 minutes of guitar since I find myself more into piano. Finally I realize, I do love music and can embrace it's power.

And I broke up with my girlfriend a few days back, which was a HUGE relief, finally I won't need to bear the burden of someone who can't appreciate me. Breaking up was hard, but the after-effects felt good.

School's okay, I'm coping well enough with studies. Going for tuition for Maths and Economics, might be going for History as well.

Also, since I'm single again, I can finally kill more Russians in Modern Warfare 2 again! Okay Ritchie, let's ace those Veteran missions.

I'm still obsessed with Paramore, aaaaaaaah~ Hayley~ <3

And finally, I can't stop randomly singing The Only Exception by Paramore for some reason...

I'll leave you with my newbie attempt of Playing I'll Face Myself from Persona 4 then.



And this very interesting graduation speech made by a university student (Thank you Nat for giving me this awesome video)



Till then, adios senior en seniorita

P.S. Average is the new Exceptional.
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Quote of the day: "FAGATHON!!" -Jane's remark of my name.

Me? Lawyer/Psychologist/Graphics Designer/Game Designer in the making + 1 naggy girlfriend? HAH.

Now when the hell did I even decide when I wanted to be either an attorney or a psychologist? Oh that's right, I decided to be a psychologist when I found out you could get into psychology courses even though you're from arts stream and considering how I can play with the minds of others, psychology ain't that bad. And I considered becoming an attorney because I've seen how courtroom dilemmas were simulated by a stupid gaming console.... I blame the Ace Attorney series on the DS for this, guilty as charged.

See teachers and friends have been telling me that when I debate with someone (be it teachers or friends) I tend to sound like a lawyer. Even I myself think that when I debate, there's an image of the devil behind me making people piss in their pants. Mehh, enough boasting eh, of course most of you know that I'm not a bright enough guy to ever step foot in the court of law.

Graphics design and gaming design has been my one goal in life, to open a big ol' company strong enough to match even the successful Square-Enix. Games have been always with me from when I was just a whipper-snapper, I can clearly remember that my first console was a Sega Saturn and I used to play Sonic The Hedgehog on it. Thus my resolve of becoming a major game developer not for only the financial perks, but to capture the hearts of gamers alike.

Now let's all forget that confusing spiral of career choices shall we, trust me, I hate choices, especially hard ones. Which reminds me of my girlfriend. I didn't address this case properly last time, so I'm gonna openly admit to you now, yes, I have a girlfriend, she's 17 like me and she's an Indonesian-born Chinese, just like me. She's slightly over-weight, likes the color green and is currently having financial problems. During PMS she has a fetish for Rojak and she plays a lot of Facebook games. BUT, she's also a hot-tempered, obsessive, and possessive girl with and added touch of hypocrisy. Now, I' not complaining about her mediocre looks, I don't usually care about the looks. But that black of a heart...what's there left to love?

One moment she could be a loving girl that cares for you, the next moment she could be ranting the ever loving crap out of herself. She has a tendency to make assumptions about me....NEGATIVE ones. It makes me ponder to myself... "Am I really that big of a dick?" So I settled the matters with her, yet she also hides it in now, and when she's accumulated enough, it's bombs away, folks.

Like I said, I hate choices, I could easily break up with her and keep her in good terms with me, but I just can't stand seeing her break down in front of me, yet, sometimes I want this relationship to stop for the good of us both. I know she loves me loads but damn she's one thpugh nut to crack. I'm clueless.

P.S. Zee, if you're reading this, I need your philosophical advice right now. Well, anyone would do but you know me best, next to Yen Yi, so whatever.

Quote of the day: "Jon, for me... girls are like buses, they come and go *smirk*" -Nizam Uddin

Insanity of the day:

"Now Mr. Rahim, (his name is Muhammad Amin Rahim, but I just took Rahim to joke with him and it was a formality, Rahim means womb in Malay) Judging from the witnesses' testimonies, it appears all 4 of them are in a mutual agreement that YOU had a hard-on in class when Azrul was beating you up... now...before my fist lands on your face, you'd better give me 25000 bucks and I'll send my back-up to clear this "matter"."

The Superficial World.

Oh the world, oh the fucking superficial world.

You know what was funny? The fact that school counselors "council" you on how to get the word A typed 8 - 9 types vertically with the subjects you took in the SPM paper diagonally placed on the left side printed in poor quality that's supposed to worth "a lot" and that my friends is what we call... a certificate. Purpose? To get a good job and a great starting salary.

First of all I'd like to question...what IS the school counselor's job? No, not to teach you Malaysia's marking scheme for SPM. To quote, "they will help you to get through your life, so consult to them" is truly laughable, sure government exams in Malaysia will ensure a great future, I will address that matter later. But seriously, students don't only have exam stress, what about their family problems? relationship problems and what not? Don't they consist of a student's "life"?

Now seeing my friends from Science stream go on a desperate struggle to get straight As and seeing people from my class desperately copying answers just to get good marks in exams is truly one of the most funniest things on earth to date. Now I can't help but to stress this out, the original definition of education worldwide is "To build fruitful and civilized citizens for a country". Now let me ask you, does worrying about a piece of paper make you anymore civilized than you are? If you answered No, you just got my utmost respect. You see, the world has gotten VERY superficial, like Megan Fox or any other "beautiful" women making guys crave for girls who are only all looks, but have they even the slightest hint of the inside of that person? Or companies only hiring graduates of high caliber, now...graduates of high caliber weren't the mastermind behind Genting Highlands or the Berjaya Sdn. Bhd. Lim Goh Tong, founder of the City of Entertainment AKA Genting Highlands was but only an immigrant from China during the revolution of Kuala Lumpur, he only studied elementary school and yet with the creativity he had, he sparked the idea of gambling as a source of income, which later evolved into a large-scale casino complete with 4 resorts and 2 theme parks. And what about the founder of Berjaya Sdn. Bhd.? Let me tell you, ol' Vincent was just a part time worker at a local McDonald's, but look at how far he's gotten. But now? hmph, all the companies want "high-caliber graduates" to take their place? answer me this, I'm planning to be either a graphics/game designer, an attorney or a psychologist, now must I pass my economics, financial studies, history or maths?

Then this is a habit I loathe, which all parents do to their kids, they boast about how smart or talented, or how much of a little angel their kids are, but in reality, those are nothing but pointless conjecture to keep a "good image", like my mom who lies to my aunts and uncles along with my cousins about how I do in school, or my attitude, now I have to be a good little angel to everyone because of her lies. There's a famous Malaysian quote... "Take all the good and throw out the bad" but with only the good, how will people see the bad? Lies begets more lies, actually, the more you try to cover up, the more mean the cycle becomes and when it all falls down, it's gonna bite you hard. Again this leads to how superficial the world has truly become.

Society today thinks that outer appearance defines what's within, that was what Alicia Keys sang in her chart topper "If I ain't got you". Truly words of the wise, those few words in her powerful lyrics just defined the whole world and all that's within it. Society has grown ignorant and all but superficial, times have changed and superiority and position reigns supreme, there is where my seed of loathe for this current generation lies. I once promised to myself, when I get married, I want to be the best father and husband I can be, I want to have an open mind, not to simply judge someone or something at first glance and that resolution is still in my heart at all times. This current generation has already caused collateral damage to the mindsets of today, and if no one is going to stand up for me, I couldn't care less (Quote from Miss Sheila Rocky: You're fighting a losing battle Jonathan, teachers won't stand up for you when there is a major crisis, no, not even your respected Encik Zainuddin or Puan Raja.) , I'll do it myself.

In conclusion, to my beloved readers... be the best that you can be and open up your senses to reality, all things are flawed and cannot be perfect, be yourself and stop being superficial.

Of superiority complex and rights

I'm sorry I haven't been updating my blog my dearly beloved readers, I'm afraid I was too busy with my girlfriend (case is solved), friends, games and school work. But this is something I have stuck in my head that I have to let out to the world.
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As all of you know by now (especially if you're in SMK Maxwell) rumors of me rebelling against out "school principal" has been flying around and spreading ad godspeed. Readers, it's true, I did rebel against Datin Zainab Bee Binti Ismail and I openly admit that. Of course a myriad of insults have been thrown at me like "The traitor", the sarcastic term "My hero" or Afiq from class 5A teasing me with a "what are you gonna do? post on Facebook" thing. Well those who still have any vengeance on me, kindly proceed to my class and tell me straight to the face, it's the best way. But in truth, I don't really give a damn about what you have to say on my actions and behavior, I have my reasons.

First off, I just couldn't take the Datin's superiority complex anymore, they way she lowers teh prestige of her students but ending up saying that it's for our own good gives her the image to the students that she's a hypocrite and that day of the SPM briefing and subject selections, She said exactly this "No, I won't allow you to take any subject due to the fact that you're potentials are limited." How does she of all people know OUR potential, not to call her fatuous, but I think that's rather rude. Not only did my friends from 5A wasted hundreds and hundreds of money to get a proper private education to prepare them for the upcoming SPM, she doesn't care less of our well being. then let me ask you, what ever happened to "Maxwell's Vision" of being a quality school on 2011? Truly this fatuous irony is laughable.

And then, this is what I see in every adult, I even consulted to my parents, friends and even teachers after the incident, I asked them "What about us? Where's OUR student's rights?" they all gave the same answer, all from fear and cowardice, I swear they all said "What can we do? it's her will, she's the boss there, we can't do anything, what if she sues you for the Facebook group?" By that moment I pondered to myself "Surely they jest, what happened to rights?" My friend Cody Rosales from America even said "No Jon, school preps you to know that in this world, you don't have rights." I humbly beg to differ, everyone should be treated with equality in this day and age. And I tend to fight for my rights. Whatever happened to our forefathers who fought for civil rights in Malaysia? The great Tungku Abdul Rahman, or what ever happened the Negro movement in America? countless lives perished fighting for their freedom, Martin Luther King Jr. died while giving a speech just to claim the civil rights of his people, for those of you who are ignorant.

By now, I sound like a dictator, don't you agree? Well, I couldn't care less, this is what I have to say. And let me stress this out one more time, if the superiors want to shun and look down upon me, so be it, but know this, that these "adults" fear us, we the generation who will take over from where they left off, we hold the power to change the world, these hands can shake the very foundations of this world and "Your voice will never be heard"? then I'll MAKE them hear me and make them understand. The Datin wants to see me, that's what Mrs. Raja told me a few days ago and I'm still waiting for her to call me up, frankly, I can't wait to debate with her, I want her to know that we, the students of this institution deserve more than what we have. But luckily, teachers have already begun supporting me, Mr. Rozaini and Mrs. Noraini are already going around to the form 5 classes to jot down those who are taking extra subjects, so if they came to your class, you know who got 3 weeks suspension from the prefectorial board, tainted his good image and took all the blame for your participation in that group. I don't need your thanks and praise. This is already considered a state of euphoria for me, and plus, I'm used to be forgotten, so yeah it's all good.

Well, keep those insults coming, I warmly welcome all of them.

Cheers,

Your sore loser and underdog,
Jonathan Law.

Love

(trust me, as much as I love writing one word essays, I can't go on all day with Love, too many things to write it'll be a thesis)

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How many crushes have you had? How many break-ups? Or how many times has your heart been broken when you hear a whisper of "No"?

What is love? that is the ultimate question, why is it when you google Love, different results show? It's because Love is many things, it's bliss, it's happiness, it's satisfaction, it's sorrow, it's blasphemy, it's a lie, it's the truth, it's a friend, it's a foe, it's heartless, it's caring and the list goes on...

Love, a foolish yet satisfying emotion none other than yourself can best describe it. Sure it's another pathetic flaw we have, but that is what we know that makes us human. Recently, I've been seeing my friends, or their acquaintances having problems in this department. Like Yen Yi's jerk-ass playboy boyfriend who broke up with her just because she was joking. or Teck Hui's friend (who I find quite attracting) who got dumped by her deluded boyfriend who can't think straight. Or Ritchie's crush who got together with another guy. Or me myself with last year's incident.

The question that's still burned into my mind is "Why do we STILL do it?" No matter how many break ups or rejections, we still WANT it. What makes it so addictive, being with your loved spouse? Why do we still want to love? Is it the famous "You'll get your lucky break" mentality? or is it because we need someone in your life?

And next there's doubt. Imagine this, you're a teen between the age of 16 and 17, and there she was, the person who is just "right" for you, you get to know the person and develop deep feelings within your heart. But in the end your efforts are for nothing as that person scared your innocent soul, marking remembrance forever. Then suddenly you meet another person and try again but one day you receive a message from your old crush / now best friend saying he or she has broke up. Ponder for a moment....what will you do? The one who's been through a lot with you, one who has an unshakable bond once made or the one who shares most of your common interest with "FRESH START" written all over him or her?

Sadly that was a decision too though isn't it?

Why does love hurt? That is another question I have. Why is it every time when you build something, it always crumbles and breaks you down leaving you alone and sad? Love, the more you build the worse it's going to feel after it all comes to an end , when the rest is silence. Still on the bright side, that's when we know we're still human, right?

Truly an enigma to the human mind, this emotion still sways from it's definition, "What is Love?" it's like asking the meaning of our existence, the answer always unbeknowst or changed from time to time. Alas, the right answer is always what you think it is, because what you think will come true.

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Why did I write that? Well when there's something on my mind I'd best let it out then let it linger for too long, plus it's to show Teck Hui I have better English than he thinks, so there, HAH!

Out of the frying pan and into the freezer.

Well, it's been nearly a week since my return from Indonesia. I didn't have time to blog because of my laziness, due to the amount of things I have to blog about.

Here goes. See the reason I didn't wanna go to Indonesia was because of where I live there, the food's bad, the girls are...mehh and there's only 3 friggin' malls, in 3 years....they only built 2 more....wow. Also my stay at the little town outside of Jakarta known as Depok isn't FUN, it's like a baby-sitting job that doesn't pay at since I have to take care of my 3 year-old twin nephews.

But, on a different note, the heart of the country, Jakarta is a different story, though the pollution is nothing less than displeasing, progress on the city has bettered itself, roads don't get stuck in traffic jams much, and the malls there have improved, so has the social well being of the citizens. Every single block you to, every single street has a mall, that's something rather new to me since Malaysia has less.

Not only that, the entertainment industry has greatly improved, Indonesian artists make much better local tunes than Malaysia has ever did, they create something original, not used. For instance, my latest band fetish Vierra, they make great songs, powerful music and lyrics. Or local movies are shot at a decent camera quality, I immediately fell in love with a movie called Laskar Pelangi which tells of the struggle of a group of elementary school kids, the plot is diverse and complete.



Speaking about love, I think I just fell for my cousin's bestie, unfortunately, she lives in Jakarta and the only way I can talk to her is via Facebook, but no matter, someone told me to be patient and so I will. When will I ever be able to meet you? *sigh*

Also on the other note, my extortion of cash from my aunts is a success, I finally got myself a Nintendo DS Lite. For those of you who know my hate for Nintendo would be shooting me right now for being a hypocrite, but some NDS games are too good to resist, so I had to get one.




Then there's the cinemas of Indonesia....walking to each one of them is like walking into a 5-star hotel, since it's plain "wow" they have arcades, comfortable seats, good food and great movies shown at a reasonable price of approximately 25,000Rp - 30,000Rp, which is about 8 ringgit to 10 ringgit.

My cousins are also the people I love and I will miss them for the next 11 months, since chances are I'll be going again in 2010, anyone who wants to come with me are always welcome. And no, Indonesia isn't just bout Bali, there are other great places to see, 37 states in all, and a large metropolis of a city to hang around with.

Well, as 2010 is just hours away, I wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, may you successfully achive your new year's resolution. Ciao.